I got dropped out of my Instrumental methods class because it was too crowded and I was the only freshman. *sigh*
A non-music major also got dropped and as we were leaving, the following conversation ensued:
Guy: f%!* that class!
Marilyn: Well it’s not the class’s fault…
Guy: Well then f%!* Bailey!
Marilyn: It’s not his fault either…
Guy: Well then who’s fault is it?
Marilyn: Well, first it’s the fault of the budget cuts, and from there the school administration and general lack of appreciation for the arts, then the state government and mismanaging of funds, then the federal government and all the debt we’re in, and since we’re a government run by the people, it comes back to us. Especially if you didn’t vote in the last election which, judging by your “F the government” badge, I’m assuming you didn’t. So it’s your fault. Or ours, rather. So in essence, I suppose we should go “f” ourselves, shouldn’t we?
I have a new found love for this French-American gentleman right here.
I didn’t realize some of my favorite (not these ones necessarily), along with some famous photographs that I’ve seen in magazines before, were made by Elliott Erwitt. And I had no idea until two days ago.
“When space and time fall off the chart,
I’ll be rid of my body that disguises my heart.
The end of time is the start of eternity,
My last breath on earth will be my first in eternity.”—King Charles (via hellomoon)
“Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”—2 Corinthians 12:8-10 (via candyheilman)
Well, it looks like tumblr is slowly but surely becoming my place to catalogue and share my music tracks :P
This is a track from this past Fall with the CSUF Jazz Singers. I was shocked when I got this solo (being the only freshman in the group and mildy insecure about my capabilities) but was so happy that I did - it was probably the most fun that I’ve ever had on stage to date.
I so enjoyed being a member of such a fun ensemble and learning the tid-bit that I did about vocal jazz improv. I hadn’t even dabbled in jazz before this semester and thoroughly enjoyed it. Unfortunately my upcoming semester schedule is borderline-suicidal and so I couldn’t take it again, but I’m crossing my fingers for Fall 2011.
I’ve been dealing with random congestion/mild coughing/sore throat but thought it was just a result of mild allergies and didn’t really take care of it.
So, life went on as usual - yesterday (despite a slightly sore throat) I recorded that cover, and in the past couple days I’ve even bumped up my usual 3-mile run all the way up to 6 miles yesterday and 6.8 miles today! I’m trying to work toward 10. <——this makes me feel really hard core.
Pride comes before the fall. Basically, I’ve been overworking my body despite starting to get sick and am now paying for it.
There’s got to be some huge lesson in this that I’m clearly not getting. Or perhaps I’m just predisposed to this sort of thing.
And now for an ounce of truth:
Psalm 139:13-16 For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.
So I tried to write a post summarizing 2010 in snippets but it got really long. Perhaps I’ll still post it one of these days…but then I had the brilliant idea:
What about those old survey things everyone used to do!!??
So I searched back at last year’s tumblr posts and, sure enough, I found an old survey from the end of 2009. (Here) I’m usually not too gung-ho about these kinds of these, but for the sake of journaling, let’s keep the tradition alive, shall we?
And so it goes:
Which was the best month for you? December
Which month(s) was the worst? May and October
What was the most significant thing that happened this year? Graduated high school/started college
What person had the most impact on your life this year? Oh boy. This is a lot more difficult that it was last year. Jesus tops the list as per yoojz. After that, I’d have to say my Dad. After that, something a little more unexpected:
Anna - for being the surprise light in my life, and for joining our family
Evan - for being the small ounce of male consistency I so desperately needed in a friend this first semester of college. (He’s probably never going to find or read this and would be embarrassed if he did. MUAHAHA)
What was the best concert that you attended? Sufjan Stevens at the Wiltern. GAH.
What was your biggest challenge of 2009?
Anxiety and stress. Finding confidence, not being too hard on myself, and learning how to pace myself and relax. Still in progress.
Your biggest regret? "The most heartbreaking instances of my life are in the moments I realize that in my own aloneness and insecurity I am - yet again- trying to manipulate an unlikely and foolish situation into fruition, even when it requires the selfish sacrifice of my individual standards and worth." - post from 10/31/10
What moments stand out to you the most? turning 18. getting my license. starting work at Oak Valley Music Academy. getting Accepted to College. Solo in the spring concert. buttonette gigs. all state honor choir. cloudburst. prom. graduating High School. working at Forest Home. night zip. sky trail. hiking. late night theology talks. moving out. concert choir. music theory. jazz singers. vocal jazz improv. late night concerts on campus. arboretum. service hours. concert choir retreat. riding my bike in the rain. san diego. leading worship. reunion with friends. snow. forest home. trout pond. new years eve.
What band did you listen to the most? Brooke Waggoner, Tyler James, Nickle Creek, Sufjan Stevens, Ellie Goulding (wow, only one addition from last year. bahaha)
On a scale of 1-10, 2010 was:
Meet anyone special? always :)
Get close to someone you didn’t expect to? Several friendships were redefined, and the friends I’ve made at college aren’t the ones I thought I would…I guess most of the relationships I have are unexpected. That’s what makes them exciting :)
Have a boyfriend or girlfriend? not exactly…
Have a relationship for more than 3 months? meh
Hook up with anyone, no strings attached? never
Experience the death of a loved one? no :)
Get in a fight? Only with the people I love the most, of course. Aha.
Lose a friend?
Some fade, others flicker.
Get drunk? Some things never change. Still not an ounce of alcohol and happy.
Regret doing something? yeh.
Go to a concert? Oh geeze…bahaha. Tyler James and Sufjan Stevens were the big mainstream “shows”, but I attended at *least* one concert a week on campus. I also saw Sumi Jo at the OCPAC which was awesome, and went to a sing along Messiah at the DCH! Good year for concerts. good year.
Fall in love? fall in like
Fall out of love? fall out of like
Get back together with an ex? >.< no.
Enjoy being single? <—-this had an entirely new meaning this year
Accomplish a goal? I lost 30lbs! I’d say that’s an accomplishment :D
Learn something new? every day o’ mah lyfe
Get arrested? lawlz. no.
Break up with someone? no
Get a tattoo? no
Go to a party? for various graduations and summer events…nothing too crazy, of course ;)
What did you do on New Year’s Eve: lovely dinner date and adventure with a dashing new friend :)
Will you kiss anyone at midnight? my dog ^.^
Who do you WANT to kiss at midnight? oh geeze…um…james mcavoy, joseph gordon-levitt, heath ledger in the 90s, the list could go on…
(^I’m keeping last year’s response because I think it’s hilarious and applicable)
What is your ‘New Year’s resolution? Kind of over resolutions. Trying to reevaluate my life is too much of a daily occurrence. Aha
Did you keep your resolution from last year? moderately
Do you think things will be different in 2011? sure. more growing up, learning, trying to love God better n stuff.
What do you want most out of 2011? surrender, independence from childish things, dependence on God
Do you think 2011 will be better than 2010? different. just different.
Anything you are particularly looking forward to? the potential of love (<—- last year’s answer. it’s a good one. i think i’ll keep it)
hi hello, so I saw your Idyllwild Arts Academy post. I really (like REALLY) want to go there for my senior year (so in a year or so). So are you in IAA or did you go already? if you did how is it so far? I've been talking to my mom about it for about a year and she's really supportive. I want to go but I'm scared... could you give me a brief description of how it is? did you have fun? did you feel like you learned a lot? What did you major in?
I love Idyllwild Arts Academy with all of my heart, but didn’t actually attend high school there. I was awarded a partial scholarship that allowed me to attend a summer program for voice and choral singing and learned more in those two weeks than I had my entire high school experience in the public school system.
Given, the people that ran the program I went to are not connected to the year-round boarding program, I had the time of my life. However, I do have a friend that did half of high school there and she’s incredibly multi-talented and one of the most artistic people I’ve had the pleasure of meeting. From what I’ve heard, she really enjoyed her time and if you’re serious about your art, it sounds like it should be recommended.
The campus is inspiring, and being around so many people that love what you do is magical in and of itself. I’ve never been so filled with love for my art or passion for my calling than when I was there. The “art academy” kind of people are some of the kindest, most open-minded and loving I’ve ever come across, and I hope that you’d be able to find the same if you were to be able to attend school there.
I guess the only thing that would really transcend my experience into potentially yours would be the campus. It’s in the woods the library is divine with windows that overlook the forest. There’s an outside amphitheater covered with circus canopies that’s positively picturesque for star gazing, and the performance halls and rooms are all top-notch. It really is a special place, even from just the infrastructure. I have a really difficult time imagining you would regret going there if you have the opportunity and resources.